We yearned for the future. How did we learn it, that talent for
insatiability? It was in the air; and it was still in the air, an afterthought, as we
tried to sleep, in the army cots that had been set up in rows, with spaces
between so we could not talk. We had flannelette sheets, like children’s, and
army-issue blankets, old ones that still said u.s. We folded our clothes neatly
and laid them on the stools at the ends of the beds. The lights were turned
down but not out. Aunt Sara and Aunt Elizabeth patrolled; they had electric
cattle prods slung on thongs from their leather belts.
No guns though, even they could not be trusted with guns. Guns were for
the guards, specially picked from the Angels. The guards weren’t allowed
inside the building except when called, and we weren’t allowed out, except
for our walks, twice daily, two by two around the football field which was
enclosed now by a chain-link fence topped with barbed wire. The Angels
stood outside it with their backs to us. They were objects of fear to us, but of
something else as well. If only they would look. If only we could talk to them.
Something could be exchanged, we thought, some deal made, some trade-off,
we still had our bodies. That was our fantasy.